I happen to be catholic, and my husband as well as my children are all christened in the catholic church. I feel that churches are powerful places of light and sacredness, as are temples and sacred sites. I am happy to call myself a catholic, just as I am proud of my Croatian heritage (I do fill out these facts on official forms); however I do not limit, tie or define myself by religion. I consider myself more as ‘spiritual’ rather than ‘religious,’ and that is what I tell people, when asked. Being ‘spiritual’ is very much aligned with my true, authentic self.
I, along with many others on the spiritual path, have for a long time now pondered the meaning and truth about God, life, and our place in the Universe. I have always believed that there is much MUCH more than we could ever comprehend let alone imagine with our conscious minds. This vehement truth-seeking has taken me on a long winding path that is still ever flowing and perpetual.
The common picture of God as a big old man who sits in the clouds watching over earth and judging humans for their ‘sins’ has never sat right with me. I still recall a one day as a young impressionable girl, when I attended a Christian Church with my friend and her family. I was completely perplexed to discover that they had a different religious view than mine. My 10 year old friend stated in a very forthright and surely manner, that catholics worship Mother Mary, and Christians revere only Jesus. “That’s funny,” I had thought. I had always felt deeply connected to Jesus as I looked at his images. I felt his authenticity in my heart. But I also adored and respected Mother Mary as a beautiful feminine being with pure maternal energy, a common human being whose life had been transformed so profoundly and miraculously by Divine intervention. Why would there be more than one belief system, more than one way of seeing things, I wondered. Why should one admire and pray to only one and not the other? And so, I began to question existence and religion.
When I was a wee little innocent ‘preppie’ (prep student), I went for a time to a catholic primary school in New Zealand. The prevalent memory I have is being afraid of the priest and the nuns! Their discerning stares and stringent ways scared me into deafening submission. I did not feel greeted with warm loving eyes or compassionate heavenly arms, but rather I felt squashed and silenced, instantly delimited by the churches’ unflappable ways and restrictions. I recall the school’s priest coming up to me one day (I was only 6 years old), and asking why my parents were not bringing me to the church every Sunday. Shame on them! I cringed internally and then dutifully went home and reported the priest’s dismay to my apathetic folks. This was followed by another cumbersome predicament that I had unintentionally gotten myself into. When it was my turn to say my compulsory weekly ‘confessions,’ I was shaking and sweating in terror, for I could not think of even one tiny thing that I had done wrong. So I found myself forced to make up a lie. I told the priest that I had kicked a boy! He seemed satisfied that I had fessed up and so I found myself now ironically repenting my made-up sins.
So back to that fine summer’s day at my friend’s church, her priest had given us a bunch of illustrious stickers that read phrases like: ‘God is Love,’ ‘God is Truth’, ‘God is Everywhere’. I still remember those poignant stickers to this day. They actually hold more truth than possibly even the clergymen would realise, and it was through really understanding what those words meant, that my life changed. It just hit me one day. It was all a matter of perception. God is everywhere. God is love. God is all around us. God is in all things. God made us in his likeness and image, and so he/she/it is in me and it is in you. It is within us all and all around us, and we are all inter-connected.
Shortly after that moment of awakening and epiphany, I began to learn that all matter has energy. It was like the Universe was validating my own findings by giving me scientific proof, and I felt great comfort that there were others that also spoke of this too! Now I understand that everything vibrates. My intuitive perception of our Creator is that it is not a supernatural being per se, but rather a powerful, immutable energy Source that connects all things and all realms of existence, even beyond earth. It is universal. It is potent. It is Divine.
In my 20s as a University student, I was still contemplating the meaning of life and every Friday night in the city I would watch in utter fascination when the Hare Krishna’s would so ceremoniously beat their drums, shake their shakers and sing, chant and dance along the main street of Auckland. I was so drawn to the vibrant colour, life, and vitality that they so naturally displayed, their sense of utter joy, calm and peacefulness, and the wonderful spiritual rhythms of their music. No, I did not want to run away, sell all my possessions, shave my head and join a hippy commune. But I did have a kind of primal urge, heightened spiritual awareness, and secret longing to be like these people and live as they do – in complete peace, harmony, joy and freedom. There was some secret yet simple truth in that, and it mesmerised me. What I now realise, is that as a ‘sensitive’, I felt the energy vibrations of both their music (high vibrational sounds and love tones), and the collective consciousness they were connecting to and being so harmoniously ‘at one’ with.
It is the dogma of religion that many people are questioning more and more. Religion places people and their beliefs into a box. One could argue that it is enclosed, limited and exclusive. It is designed to indoctrinate masses of people. Much of the pure, true teachings of Jesus, have been lost in time through adaptations, and translations. I believe that Jesus came on earth to teach about love and forgiveness. He wanted to share his knowledge and abilities with all. His plight was but a metaphor for ours. We are all capable, and even pre-programmed, to be Divine Master Healers. We each carry our own Light. It is just a matter of finding, nurturing and living in it to the point that it becomes second nature. And this is the basic premise of ascension. It is the truth of who we really are and where we are heading. We are all Divine beings of Love and Light, and we are all connected and contain the full potential to Master ourselves and be of service of others. This is what lightworkers are awakening to, and you can, too.
Let me make it clear that it is not my desire to disrespect any religion, as religion does achieve a holy purpose and make many people feel safe and comforted in their faith. It gives people something to beleive in, a place to go for their worship, and much solace is offered in social and community church settings where people of similar faith can congregate together in alied masses.
What I do want to say is that much of the original knowledge from Jesus’ time on earth has been lost or hidden by people who sought to be in positions of authority, power and influence; in order to create fear, controlling rules and a deceptive kind of blind allegiance amongst the people. Jesus’ real message was simple: each of us is our own Master, with our own truth within us, we just need to follow our hearts and heed our own guidance.
True spirituality, in comparison to religion, is open, inclusive, non- judgemental, positive and accepting. It takes the expansive, uninhibited stance that we are each on our own spiritual journey, and there are many pathways to the Divine. Spirituality embraces the ‘unknown’ and encourages each soul to seek their own truth, trust their own heart, and follow their own guidance. You do not need to go to a priest or a person of official authority to heal. You do not need to follow a set indoctrinated method to pray. You have your own spiritual power. You can bless your own water, say your own prayers, pray to the God, the angels, the Universe, or whatever spiritual being or Creator name that you wish. You are your our own Master.
It is time for us to awaken and remember who we really are in truth: Divine, eternal, unlimited, spiritual beings of God living in a human body at this glorious transformational time on earth!
© 2011 Natalia Kuna